Feeling.......OkOk......

Tis morning i went to train car wif her....i decide to go earlier as i went to 7 eleven to buy strepsils for her coz she told me dat she was sick yesterday....i kno the buying has no longer useful...it's kinda too late for me.....but i jz wan her to recover soon....i was thinking bec every words i said to her....''can u plz be a lil bit uh sim??''......''can u plz dun be so stubborn and listen to me???''.....''go realise wat have u done!!!!''...i was damn angry whenever i said dat.....now..i jz realise dat actually i am jz saying to myself.....i am totally the same wif wat i had described her wif...there is no meaning of crying over spilt milk....although how regret i am,i will never get bec wat i used to have......i dun dare to think how if i am no longer frens wif her...i dun dare to think bout dat..watever i am doing now will jz make her feel like i am so fake dat i dun even appreciate her last time...no more use...no longer useful.....i jz wan to make her happy bec...and the other stuffs...i dun care d....i dun wanna have any bad or sad situation wif her d..as long as she is happy all the time by my side,i will be having no regret for wat i will do for her....ppl say when u lost it,u will jz start to appreciate....i tot she will be the one facing the problem.....instead,i am the one who face it.....Who get the problem come,the get-er will have to responsible for it...blaming the others will jz make the person feel dat he is the person who is oni rite...dat will be another big problem den...i hope it wil be not too late for me to do anything for her......i deeply pray for it......by the way....thanx for all my buddies!!!!!!they makes me smile today......at least i have a small smile...